Living Funeral Reflection
I woke up today feeling helpless and I created enough presence to turn on your recording. I wanted to share with you my experience.
My first trigger was losing my name. I never thought I was so attached to it. It really hurt.
Here are my last words:
I am grateful for all of it
the beauty and the pain that makes it so
my mother is a star
my father is a rock
I tried to tell the truth my truth as i saw it from a place of love
I am most grateful for the love I have found for myself which really lives all around me - it lends itself to the sun
I've only ever wanted others to know this love ; this safety net that we can go to whenever we need to feel whole
During the death I felt a movement - a wave like over my eyes - I saw purple
I loved feeling that nothingness- a ray of freedom swung over me. Now I get steady waves... makes total sense.
Waking up was hard. I wanted to stay there longer. It took me awhile to build up the courage to do this by myself. But I am so blessed to be in this space now; because it isn't a fear now to give this to others... I know it will take time to get it right but when you believe in something so much - the idea of failure or fear is like a joke. There really is no choice. And a part of me wants to cry that it has taken me this long to find that thing.... but I am grateful to be here.
Thank you for being a huge part of my journey. Xo